My grandpa's death

My grandfather was an old man, who lived with my stepgrandmother, a bubbly younger (but not young) Indonesian wife in a cosy 3 room HDB flat. Of course, there were generation gaps between him and my generation, but thankfully he has the love of his children and my stepgrandmum. Today he passed away after being admitted for a week, shortly after my sister and his eldest son returned from overseas to see him. Mum went to the hospital first for a family meeting, while dad and jie went out to eat before going over. Since I just had my breakfast, I planned on meeting them later. but soon, my mum called about grandpa's critical condition, and dad and jie were uncontactable. PLUS, it has to be deepavali on this day, when the mrt phone lines are closed. I wanted to ask them to page for them. So instead, I went to Serangoon mrt for help, before heading over. I'm not close to him at all, but I was really sad when he left. I even burst out in tears at the mrt station. I think death is really scary -- I can count the number of people who had died: my sister's fren's mum, who had an abusive husband for yrs, and when she finally got freedom, aka a divorce, she found she had cancer; ms serene ng who died in labour, and other Korean celebrities and mangaka that I know of that have died. All these people are either people who died young, or/and have very little satisfaction in life. And I really would want that satisfaction as well; I don't want to pass away with regrets. That's why I was sorry for my grandpa, cuz he's neglected by others. No one likes a lao gu dong, or a cranky old man, or someone whom they don't share the same frequency with. On the other hand, I think his children really love him, and my stepgrandmum too. I think he's lucky to have her. They got married when they were rather old because my grandfather needs someone to take care after him, and I can assure you she's really a wife to him and not a maid. No matter how he throws his temper at her, she's always cheery. One reason why I think I was so emotional is because my stepgrandmum chatted with me over lunch ytd, and she said that ah gong told her that he was very depressed cause people didn't visit him. People like my aunts, his sons' wives. And partially its because they don't really care. I'm glad to have been a comfort to him ytd, and I'm also glad that his favourite eldest son managed to return ytd to visit him too. At least he managed to have more people to visit him. My sister was too late. Like wth, LUNCH? Lunch at this moment?? So jie didn't managed to catch a last glimpse of a living him. Anyway, its good that he led a long life, albeit not exactly the perfect way he wanted it to be.